Week 1 // 2018

 " I believe one of the most valuable gifts you can give yourself is Time. Time to be fully present"

Recently my days have been overshadowed by difficult contact with Henry's father (my soon to-be ex-husband) and thoughts of the unwelcome scenarios he may throw my way. It is hard to maintain detachment and politeness when being deeply hurt and upset is the feeling that keep hitting me when such little thought is given to the position he has put myself and his son in.

But trying to combat these thoughts, for the first week of January I put some positive actions into place //

1.  I attended a 2 hour Yoga Workshop on Reflection and Intention. I had been recommeded going back to yoga by a local Reiki therapist who was wonderful in helping me relax and recommend life changes to help combat stress and to start with yoga (which i LOVE and have been doing for years but just hadn't found the time or the good teachers in cornwall.

2.  I enrolled Henry on 3 mornings a week at nursery which made a vast difference to my week having time to concentrate on myself, quiet time and look for work. It also made me much happier with Henry and less likely to become overwhelmed and snappy.

3.  I started listening to podcasts that focus on how people overcome challenges and the best i've found was Oprah's Soul Sessions and Bryony Gordon's Mad World which focuses on mental health. Both have been so useful to hear first hand accounts of how other people handle stress, overcome suffering, building resilience and living in the present.

4.  I went for a walk with my dad. Explored the beautiful countryside right on my doorstep and walked without seeing a single soul but the fields and the ocean. It reminded me to get out when I'm feeling overwhelmed and appreciate the good things that I do have.

5. I joined an extras agency. I studied Acting in my early 20s at a London drama school, and although I do still want to act in the future, an extras agency where I could work in the south west for filmings and get paid with flexibility for my family sounds good to me.

6.  And finally, I bought my first furniture. From having furnished apartments, old family furniture and items i'd bought with Henry's father, it is exciting to be starting afresh with no bad memories associated. To be able to have my own furniture in a house I bought all by myself is very liberating and I dont underestimate the fortunate position I am in as a single woman to be able to do this.

Overall my intentions for the year ahead are to slow down. To concentrate on Henry's and my own health needs much more. Take some holidays. Eat healthier and lose some weight. Go back to London for some weekends to see my friends. To learn to surf...!
xx